This thought cycle constantly fucks with me

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Well of course disregarding certain groups of people entirely wont do anyone any bit of good. However, wasting energy and possible in fighting of allies over which group has it worse does what exactly?

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I feel like “the most skillful hypochondriac” sometimes too. It’s fairly common in many forms of mental disorders.

I believe there is a specific term for it, but in the meantime, we can compare these feelings to Moncler Outlet sale the feelings of someone with imposter syndrome.

When I addressed this with my psychiatrist, he told me that it wasn’t even close to uncommon. (Except he did say it was uncommon for someone to admit it to their doctor) He explained that it is a coping mechanism for people dealing with difficult mood disorders.

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